Ahhhhhh! Go. Ahhhhh! No! Now do one… Keep going! Keep going! Alright… so I want you to be… your back is to that. Back here? Yeah and have your butt like right here. Alright… Like, like… I’m back? Yeah. Okay. Theres something telling me to be… a major film director you know? It would feel that much more special because of the journey. It’ll be 2016 in a few days and at this point it’s do or die. You know I’ve been working hard since 2012. It’ll be four years next summer. Since the last Olympic Trials. Yeah… I got bubble guts. Right now it’s really just staying healthy. 2008 when I tried out for the Olympics… 2012 when I tired out for the Olympics… mentally I wasn’t there yet. There was pressure but… uh I made it hard for myself. I think I’m really close at this point and if I give up I’ll live in regret the rest of my life. Go! It’s like being a superhero and using all your strength at one time. That why a lot of runners… They’re so exhausted afterwards. Literally takes everything. I know track and field isn’t gonna last forever. I’m able to say alright… after I’m done with this I can venture into filmmaking and really do that wholeheartedly. But as for filmmaking I can do that until I’m dead so… um thats definitely what I want to do. Umm… look at each other. And then you’re like… I want you to scoot and be like “hey, hey!”. Hey over here! Come to him, come to him! Okay. Cut. Film has always been… my outlet. It’s been something that I run to when track and field isn’t working out. And I don’t know if thats a good thing, because I latch onto something else but… It fulfills me because it makes me happy. It fills the void that… track kinda leaves empty a lot of the times. And I’ll tell ya… I’ll just tell everybody when to go. So y’all just keep doing. Alright y’all ready? And action. It’s been a minute since I’ve spoken in front of a huge crowd. And since the age of ten I’ve been competitive in track and field. Once I got to high school I won about nine state championships. It enabled me to get a full scholarship to South Carolina. I wanted to go somewhere that had my major. I always wanted to be a filmmaker. I qualified for the Olympic Trials. I ran the A standard. To the Olympics you have to get top three. But I made… you know it was fifth place. And everyones just like diving. Like… I should have dove. I think about it to this day I should have dove! But in that time where I was feeling really low I kinda… umm… revamped and redeveloped my passion for filmmaking. I’ma keep going until I get this world championship and Olympic medal. And I’m gonna keep going until you know I can have a movie on a big screen like that. Maybe a little bit bigger. Good luck Johnny. Thank you so much. Everybody wave, you all ready? One, two, three! Good. If it wasn’t for film I think I would still have a lot of things built up. But film has just been that… that thing that has just kept me going. Uhh… to be a vulnerable black man thats you know… Society says thats a no-no you know what I mean? We’re seen as strong and umm… If I need to express myself I can say watch this. I am a filmmaker because. I am inquisitive. I am passionate. And I dream. Go forward. Go after him Tim. Back up. I wanna just establish that okay, theres a lot of zombies in this warehouse. And I want them to come from every corner. Alright zombies you ready? Fly around that corner because you heard these two uhh… juicy flesh people running… Okay… You guys ready?! And action! Give it to me! Faster, faster, c’mon! Fifty one, fifty two, fifty three… Let me see you pick up on that backside. Let me see some arms! Let me see y’all go to your pocket, pick it up on that backside! There you go! You see the glory but I know the story. Johnny wants to be a filmmaker! Uhh… shoot he might wanna do what you guys doing. He wants to make his own movie. We’re still working on his race strategy. If you win an Olympic medal you can win some money to help you with your filmmaking… but right now it’s no money out there. It’s his choice. How do he wanna separate it. I was gonna be behind ya… ahhhh! I always tell myself I am the world champion. I am the best hurdler in the world. Just to give myself motivation. Because there… There are moments where it’s just you and you alone and… you have to learn how to motivate yourself. Because when you’re at the line at the world championships… the only person thats gonna be in your ear is you. I hope the records last if I break any. But you know no-one can ever take a gold medal. Once you’re a gold medal winner, you’ll always be a gold medal winner. When the time comes things happen. But I go in 110% until the very end. When you start something finish it. My mom put a lot of my plaques and stuff up here. I got a lot of like MVP awards growing up… and then heres another one. Professionally I have a lot of second place medals and… No world championship medals. I thought I had more in here but I guess that was it. A lot of times… as you know I advance in my career I have a lot of doubts. Thinking maybe I’ve reached my peak. Maybe I shouldn’t be doing this anymore. And then when I look back at this I’m like… well. This is something I’ve been doing all of my life so… My mother of course shes the core of everything. Shes the heart of our family. She kept everything together, even you know the fact that my dad wasn’t around umm… She was the mother and the father. Umm she was a single parent. And my mom worked several jobs for me and my sister. And umm… you know. The stories not too different from what you’ve probably heard before. But… it’s definitely our story. Being around family. They stay real with you. But it’s funny after everywhere I’ve lived and traveled I’m back here in Clayton. Back to the basics. And they’re very supportive you know. It’s hard to find that anywhere else. Because I’ve tried to look for support in other places. Hasn’t worked. We’re gonna do the same thing… Oh. Lets see. Johnny was a… Johnny was always different. You know umm… When he started running track he would take the camera with him. To the track meets. I’m like ” you can’t…” you know focus on your events and you’re out here trying to film Because in his spare time from running, when he was supposed to be sitting and resting… he would be filming. And action! You hear no a lot. You get more nos than you do yeses in the world of… in the film industry. You really do. Hearing no, no, no. All the time. I’m learning… it’s taught me to be resilient. You just have to be able to bounce back. A lot of people don’t dream. They kinda just float. All you need is that one person that believes in you. That sees value in your work. Stories… visual stories… help give us balance. Y’all ready? Get home safe. Text me when you get home just so I know. Okay. My stories have a purpose. And ultimately they will help someone one day. In the film world… You know. When it comes to athletics. A lot of people don’t get it. They’re like “You have to train? Just come, just take a day off or train here.” And they don’t get it that I can’t just do that. Twenty one, twenty two, twenty three, twenty four! Oh thats why you worked so hard. Or thats why you didn’t go out to the club with us or… go out of town and get drunk like… I mean I don’t knock it but I sacrifice a social life. Arms. Get your hands up, get them up, get them up. C’mon Johnny swing your arms, this gotta be a habit! Next years the Olympics so… just the thought of it being around the corner. I remember 2012 I didn’t make the team and I thought it was the end of the world. I was crying. Eyes just pouring out. It’s a lot of pressure. I’m just excited. I’ve never gotten a live reaction… well the last time I did a screening was in high school. Thats the last time I got a live reaction. But that was for a senior project. And my work wasn’t as good as it is now. Anybody can tell their story. If they’re willing to. Whether it’s like a small arena of 10, 15, people or an arena of 300 people… the fact that someones sitting there and watching something that I thought about. If people see that in this area I love that. And if I can build an audience here, I love that as well. Those people got to see what I saw… what I envisioned. And to be able to hear a response… whether it’s negative or positive. That makes me happy. I like a lot of ice, but I don’t care. Are you ready? You go first. They’re gonna say they need more ice. Are you ready? Start it. Start it. Oh my gosh. Need more ice? We don’t need no more ice y’all. No. I told y’all. Ahhhh! I can do a little bit more. Yeah just a little bit more ice. Don’t dump it on us! Alright, thats enough. Because I feel like I’m about to go numb. Oh that hurts. Ooooohhh! Ahhh! Look at their arms bro. Careful now. The things that… it takes to be world class. It decreases… the inflamed muscles. You need a little more ice. I told them coach they need more ice. What are you doing?! Coach… like you don’t understand. Coach! The ice done melt. Coach what are you doing? Just because the ice melt, don’t mean we need more. It’s on 45. He said… y’all need more ice. You know what? Thanks coach. Lets go gentlemen. Lets go Johnny, lets go man! Man ahh! I’m not trying to run that fucking hard. It’s too fast. I stay in my lane… This is not a team sport. It’s about balance. Ain’t about blasting randomly. It don’t make sense. It’s counterproductive. I hate shit like that. It larrys the fuck out of me. It’s counterproductive. You work so hard. For 47, 48, seconds of a race. And then it’s over. You’re doing this okay. Thats why I changed the speed with it. You alright, you’re good. But I mean… your speed… But you were relaxed! You didn’t go hard. Johnny! You’re a 20, you could run 20.21 you know? You see what I’m saying? You were right there. It’s like the first time I ever packed… ten days worth of stuff in a carry on. Do you have your card? What card? Woosh! The card your nephew made for you. Oh yeah where is that card at? It’s in here. Let me get my card. Go again! Go again! Go again! Lets show them what you made for me? Go uncle. What does it say? Say “go uncle!” Look EJ. Is that what you made for me? You’re gonna do great. I loved to play tag when I was little. And no one could ever catch me. Those were just moments where it’s like okay… theres something there. Tenths of seconds… thats how we measure. If someone runs 10.1 and then the other runs 10.3 thats kinda lightyears from each other. Thats when it becomes really mental. The practice part is actually easy. Its the competition and when it counts, thats when it becomes really mental. In order to make the team we need to finish in the top three. Of course it’s the semifinals. Todays not gonna put you on the team. Today puts you one step closer to the team so… more aggressive today. In lane five. Former NCAA champion, runner up a year ago, the world’s fastest this year at 48.10, Johnny Dutch! When you’re experiencing that runners high. Theres nothing like it. And even though my body is exhausted, it’s like my minds somewhere else so it’s pushing my body to the limit. From the inside… Johnny Dutch in the yellow… Ohhhhh! Very, very quickly there. Dutch, Clement, Anderson, and Robinson off to the final. Yeah it’s been awesome. So y’all have been here since the beginning? Oh yeah. We’ve been following you. Oh yeah? Awesome. Are you guys from here? We’re from Louisiana, New Orleans. Oh wow! Yup. So… Wherever you think, yeah. Good. This is gonna be good. One more. Don’t change anything. Do your normal thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah definitely. Definitely. Alright you guys. We wanna see you back Sunday. Congratulations. Thank you, thank you. Thats usually what I do. I watch videos of people eating what I can’t eat. He’s like really fighting Spongebob right now. Too funny like, so stupid. I just know that trainings very difficult. Sometimes that… that really messes with your psyche. It’ll drive you crazy. You know what I mean. So you have to have a balance. I’ve learned through the years it’s not just physical. It’s not about putting in the work all the time. Sometimes it’s about putting in the work mentally. Meaning. Strengthening your mentality. Theres no second chance. It’s a do or die. All he gotta do it top three. Book his ticket to Rio. Whats good? Aww man… okay. *crowd cheers* I’m literally training for a medal to be the best. You have to go through a process, a journey. In order to become a champion. *crowd cheers* Dutch with the… standout shoes. *crowd cheers* Johnny Dutch! He’s clutching! *crowd cheers* Johnny Dutch was the leader for much of the race… You have to go through some type of trial and tribulation. Whether it’s dramatic or not. I had a panic attack the night before finals that most people don’t even know. I was in the dorm room crying. Like crying my heart out. And my mom was on the phone trying to calm me down. And I had never experienced that before. And thats when I knew anxiety was something serious. Physically I was the best in the world, but mentally I wasn’t there. And I knew… I think I was just overtrained. I psyched myself out. I was leading the whole race, so I was thinking well you know maybe I can get through this, but then… I knew the night before that… I’m not gonna make this team. I just knew that it was over. I knew dreams were over. I think failure is very important. And it’s needed. Because that was pushes you. Thats what gives you fire. Through all the years I never really had a balance. Track and field is not life. Film has always been my escape. And a lot of my films I’ve created out of failure. If I can do both at the same time, then hey. I’ll do it. But if not… I think I’d be okay to say hey well… the way I used to study movies when I was a boy, and that was before track and field. You know? I don’t feel like I have to prove anything to anyone like I used to. We’re gonna do it a couple more times just to have some options. Ready? Rolling. Sounds rolling, take seven. This is a bit different. It’s peanut butter, banana slices, and a little bit of honey. That was good. Now you just gotta slow it down. Slow it down a lot, so… So take your time. Kinda like you’re going into the bag. Like you’re getting ready, like this is a bit different. Hold on, you’re going to the bag. And then you deliver it. He’s just talented. You can see it. Soon as he puts some bass in his voice. That’ll come with age! He wasn’t around growing up. And so I kinda grew up bitter for a little bit. But I’ve finally got through it. I’ve had several conversations with my dad. His intentions are always sincere. Now that I’m older, and for him to still show that he can still be a father regardless of what age I am, and come out and support me. So I really… appreciate him for that. Alright throw it. Do it again. I dunno, what you see is what you get with him. He was born to do this. No question about it. Because I know one day he’s gonna make it. Because he deserves it. He’s a good kid. He’s been a good kid. Yes sir. Cut. That was perfect. See? There we go. Alright. Welcome! Alright. Do you have your tickets? We’ve never missed one! Welcome to Film Night on Clay Street! I am so happy to see a packed house, thank you for braving. Several of the filmmakers are here. You’re gonna get to ask them questions, chat with them. It’s a good view here. This is a bit different. But I think it tastes better. It’s peanut butter, banana slices, and a little bit of honey. *crowd cheers* Filmmakers that are in attendance, please come up. Guess I’ll go first… Oh Lord. Okay. My name is Johnny Dutch. I’m from Raleigh, North Carolina. And my film was “The Boy and Boris”. I guess what inspired the film… Thanks, thanks! *applause* You premiered a film tonight. Thats kinda cool. Yeah! It was so nerve-racking. I mean. You do events like this and it’s like… well maybe there is a lot of hidden treasure in North Carolina. Maybe I should just stay and use the resources that are here. Overall vibe was good, it was just a healthy atmosphere. It was just a chance to show my work. And so grateful. It’s really cool man. Theres a lot of reasons why we need these stories. There are things that I dream about. There are things that I see. That… I want other people to see. Theres a lot of stories that haven’t been told. Or told a certain way. I wanna put my story on film so that someone of the younger generation can look at it and say “He went through something that I’m going through” I’ve never really had a balance. Literally for almost twenty years of my life. Track and field has shaped my narrative. Shaped my way of thought. Especially when creating. In track and field you can’t rush the process. It doesn’t happen overnight. I’m just grateful… the fact that I’m able to just like get up and create. That makes me happy, because some people can’t do that. Some people don’t know how to do it. Filmmaking does help me hold on to that magic. That I used to feel when I was a boy. As long as I’m creating… I’m around other passionate people who are creating… I know I’m going in the right direction. You know I’ll be happy.